I often find myself looking at what I don't have instead of what I do have. Especially recently. You get given something, then it is taken away and you are left with the lie that you somehow 'deserved' that blessing and don't deserve for it to be taken away. Once things are given to us in life, things we really want, we cling onto them and don't allow our hands to let go.
Deserving things is a far fetched lie. A lie I often buy into. Whoever said we deserve squat is severely deceived. Every single thing on Earth is a thing we never deserved in the first place.
The second my mind swaps its natural way of thinking and starts viewing blessings just as they are, undeserved blessings. That is the second my whole perspective on my life changes.
Loss and pain and hurt lead way to us falling into ruts of uncertainty, doubt, confusion, and bitterness. But those emotions fall fast when we realize the fullness and goodness that often eventually comes from hardships and trials. We don't deserve a life that is easy and lacking loss and heartbreak and let downs. Actually, I think often the life we get is a whole lot more full and filled then we ever earned.
If we want to compare ourself against the deserving, Jesus was deserving. And He did not receive even a small ounce of what He should have.
Jesus gives us inherently more then we could ever deserve, ask for, need, or earn.
