We like to wish that we had a choice. We like to wish that the universe is at our dispense, in the palm of our hands instead of our creators. We like to plan and schedule and build up this calendar and eventually, this life that revolves around a to-do list and plans that typically change. We like to know what is going to happen next. We like to be in control and shiver when we lack it. In short, we like to play God. Even if we aren't admitting it, we are surely doing it.
We do everything in our power to not admit this though. Especially as Christians. We proclaim "God is in control" and "everything happens for a reason" but I look around and rarely think people truly believe that... at least no one's living it.
I am realizing day by day in a school consisting of people proclaiming to be Christians that we live in a box of comfort and are often engulfed in walls we ourselves create. We don't let people in, we want what we want, and usually that is an easy, comfortable life. We don't like to trust, we don't like to put things in other people's hands.
The thing about Jesus though that boggles my mind and still stuns me, is He never did that. He put His trust in those that He knew would break it. He loved those that did not love Him back. And as much as that is said a million times, I think the second that sets into our little human minds, it would astonish us and draw us to our knees. He LOVED sacrificially and endlessly those that did not love him either of those ways. He gave what He knew He would not receive. He put himself out there, when He knew He would gain nothing in return. He did it because if He didn't, what view would we have of how God loves us? The worst, skewed perspective.
The thing is though: He did not do this without reason or purpose. He did this so we could do the same.
We are called to put our choices aside to some extent, to put the things we clench in the hands of God who created them in the first place, to rip up our lives plans and let God mold and shape them, and to let go of the constant fear of letting someone be in control other then ourselves.
The longer we are trying to be in control, the more we will be controlled by this world and not the goodness and truth of the Gospel.
And we know that all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28
